i always thought that when you reach a certain age it all will be clear, my whole life will be sorted and decided and id be happy to stick with the decisions i've made. guess what? its all a bullshit! nothing is ever certain and even at my age you are still somewhere in the woods with no path to take. i know, i know, that sounds kinda emo-ish, so just to calm you down, im not feeling emo at all today. in fact i have a feeling this week will be a happy week. there is lots planned and i welcome surprises. yes, thats right, me, Miss Routine will welcome all surprises this week. why? well, its partly because of what happened yesterday. a epiphany! i realized that we are learning something every day. and thou it might sounds like what happened yesterday was very insignificant, it gave me a great pleasure! ill have all of you know, that yesterday i learned that there is a difference between sawing buttons onto a shirt and coat :O and i also DID try sawing buttons 'the new way'. surprisingly it gave me a little bit of accomplishment. after i felt that wonderful taste, i wanted to keep it for a bit longer... and then i got distracted by a text from a special person. was hoping the person would text me, was wishing it for few good days now. i think i wished it to happen... maybe i have magic powers? hee hee it happens all the time, see. will power wishing. usually it shows in a small ways - rain will stop raining just as i have to go outside; a person in front of me will change their orders, so i can have the last piece of cheesecake; ill be thinking about someone, and few minutes later that person will call/text me. it might be just a coincidence... or maybe not. anyways, something worked, and the said person did text me - yey. we exchanged more than few texts and it felt good. like the old times. we used to text all the time, for weeks, with breaks only for beauty sleep. hopefully we will keep texting and calling. i miss the old times :( i thought i was moving on, made my piece with everything what happened; i thought... i was wrong. the happiness that filled me while seeing the said persons name on my phone under "1 new message" told me everything. i suck!! why? because i cant move on! a similar thing happened last week when i got an email of a long lost friend. seems like i just cant move on, im stuck in the past, and i secretly like it.
all those emotions i experienced yesterday made me think this is going to be a great week. i went to bed with a smile on my face *listening to Linkin Park live from Manchester helped too*. pouring rain walked me up this morning, way to early, but it didnt ruin my happiness :D my normal good mood ruiner - school run - didnt work this time either! im happy happy happy!!
ok, enough babbling. time to do somethng constructive and important! ha ha